I dared hardly lift my eyes from the page before me, that melancholy scene so instantly usurped its place
Written by gcole on May 1, 2022
“Yester-evening I sat in my nook reading some old books till late on towards twelve. Hindley sat opposite, his head leant on his hand; perhaps meditating on the same subject. There was no sound through the house but the moaning wind, which shook the windows every now and then, the faint crackling of the coals, and the click of my snuffers as I removed at intervals the long wick of the candle. Hareton and Joseph were probably fast asleep in bed. It was very, very sad: and while I read I sighed, for it seemed as if all joy had vanished from the world, never to be restored.
“The doleful silence was broken at length by the sound of the kitchen latch: Heathcliff had returned from his watch earlier than usual; owing, I suppose, to the sudden storm. That entrance was fastened, and we heard him coming round to get in by the other. I rose with an irrepressible expression of what I felt on my lips, which induced my companion, who had been staring towards the door, to turn and look at me.
“‘No, you may keep him out the whole night for me, I answered. ‘Do! put the key in the lock, and draw the bolts.
“Earnshaw accomplished this ere his guest reached the front; he then came and brought his chair to the other side of my table, leaning over it, and searching in my eyes for a sympathy with the burning hate that gleamed from his: as he both looked and felt like an assassin, he couldnt exactly find that; but he discovered enough to encourage him to speak.
He had ceased drinking at a point below irrationality, and had neither stirred nor spoken during two or three hours
“‘You, and I, he said, ‘have each a great debt to settle with the man out yonder! If we were neither of us cowards, we might combine to discharge it. Are you as soft as your brother? Are you willing to endure to the last, and not once attempt a repayment?
It seemed so dismal to go upstairs, with the wild snow blowing outside, and my thoughts continually reverting to the kirkyard and the new-made grave!
“‘Im weary of enduring now, I replied; ‘and Id be glad of a retaliation that wouldnt recoil on myself; but treachery and violence are spears pointed at both ends; they wound those who resort to them worse than their enemies.
“‘Treachery and violence are a just return for treachery and violence! cried Hindley. ‘Mrs. Heathcliff, Ill ask you to do nothing; but sit still and be dumb. Tell me now, can you? Im sure you would have as much pleasure as I in witnessing the conclusion of the fiends existence; hell be your death unless you overreach him; and hell be my ruin. Damn the hellish villain! He knocks at the door as if he were master here already! Promise to hold your tongue, and before that clock strikes-it wants three minutes of one-youre a free woman!
“He took the implements which payday loans in Vermont I described to you in my letter from his breast, and would have turned down the candle. I snatched it away, however, and seized his arm.
“‘No! Ive formed my resolution, and by God Ill execute it! cried the desperate being. ‘Ill do you a kindness in spite of yourself, and Hareton justice! And you neednt trouble your head to screen me; Catherine is gone. Nobody alive would regret me, or be ashamed, though I cut my throat this minute-and its time to make an end!